it's to describe how a helpless person may view theirselves in the world/life from time to time,motions one might go through, etc it's also displays my motive as far as Im putting this story out there in hopes to touch and speak for many who have felt this way and still do feel this way...it's called redemption, meaning life cant be a constant struggle with unseen rewards, it makes no sense to go through it all without fighting back to be redeemed for the struggles, rather than just rolling over and dyin miserable from it..